I have to myself stay positive, I really don't want my mood to affect anyone, which always seem to be the case.
Sorry G, for sending you those emotional messages.
Anyway, I'm going to practise this habit of turning off my phone whenever I'm at home but only to turn it on for the alarm to work every morning. Reason wise is to control my usage, and partly 'cause I don't think much people need to contact me all the time, right? Isolating whenever possible. Can I not go school if I choose not to?
Term tests are around the corner. But I still have lots of things that I don't understand. I want to work hard but I don't have the will. Where is the enthusiasm I've had at the start of school? Gone, just after a month. I'm so dead meat.
是我的错觉吗？我总觉得我和班上的大家的个性与想法完全不同，一种说不出的理由。照理上应当是不容易相处的吧。
And it's been a month. I still don't feel belonged to. Maybe this is the reason. I see Samantha, YS and Huiping all happily attend school everyday. I'm envious. Well, just get things right is what I'm needed to. I don't know. I don't want to care either.
