My term-tests have just ended today but I'm still feeling very stress.
Partly because of the family problems after ah gong passed away and at work.
I found myself getting envious of people, and it's getting pretty bad.
I know I shouldn't, but you know, to say is easier than to do. The negative feeling is there.

Ah ma has been digging out the past, even those that happened before I was born. This made me change alot of perspective and thinkings.

At work, recently, I found myself doing back all the old stations, on each and every schedule. Then, people moving up fast, even queueing up to do the last station which I don't get assigned to do. I don't find any sense of achievement anymore like how I used to; when I first started, I always anticipated for the next new station. And there is always this someone who demoralises you - saying please and stuff when they need people, and make you sound like "you are not needed" when they have enough manpower.

Enough for tonight. I'm freaking tired from only 2.5 hours of sleep last night which lasted me for the whole day. I need time to sort out my feelings and thoughts.

Thanks mo-mo for the words of encouragement. =)