I was struggling whether to attend the e-guides camp earlier on. And obviously I didn't. Now I have two more free days. I want to find someone out but ya, I don't know who to ask again. I am starting to doubt on myself, if whatever I do, my emotions and feelings, are right and reasonable. I am totally lost here. If back to the old days, my ah gong will be there listening to me, right? :D

I can't say I have no friends, because I would be doing unfair and unjustice to those who really treat me well, or just a warm smile for a second at least - nothing that really matters. However, whenever I am in need of warm and encouragement, I can't think of anyone whom I can look for.

Currently I am giving this sucky attitude to everyone which I don't even like, thus despising myself even further.

I am a total confusion born into this world.